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The Medicine of Gratitude

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A somewhat intimate share for eyes that care-
For many many years we have gathered together to shift and transform through the breath in a co-creative container that has been in part, formed by the lovely soul known by so many as Prem Baba.
Every closing has been deeply mystical and powerful, rooted in source and translated from Portuguese into English. What many have not known is that the “hinario” or hymn that we have closed with was written while being sung to the Ganges River in Rishikesh by Prem Baba himself.

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In January of 2017, I was planning a journey with the intention of receiving some much needed healing for myself. I had just lost the 3 most influential and important people in my life to cancer. Little by little I was completely take apart at the seams.
I had never sat with my two of my favorite teachers who are still “in body” and I knew deep down that it was time to prostrate myself at the feet of someone who could “see through me”.
My first “go to” was Ram Dass who’s retreat in Hawaii had a waiting list 100 deep. I researched my other “top picks” and found that the Prem Baba Sanga was offering a silent retreat in the hills of the Himalayas so I quickly registered.
Simultaneously one of my dearest friends, who is no doubt the finest Western student of Peruvian, Shipibo teachings I know was planning a retreat to Terapoto for a 21 day dieta. Due to a lag in response from the “silent retreat” registration team and my desire for “intense cleansing” I booked the trip to travel with friends to Peru.
 I was heart broken not to have made the decision to travel to India to see Prem Baba but the journey inward that my time in the jungle provided was just the push I needed to clear and process the losses I had incurred and replace those voids with the “internal self love” required to open up enough to really “see” my life again.
Upon returning to the states, much more unfolded. The work was not yet close to complete and I had not yet even begun to establish contracts for the 2017 season. Maybe it was time to take a break from the work, put the chacapa and microphone down and get a job at Walmart? I don’t quite know where I was at that point but erasing any memory of what I had become which was inauthentic or illusionary while in Peru had invariably been completed and I was working with a blank slate.
The first call I made was to Sridhar Silberfein. For those of you who do not know Sri, let me first say anyone with as big of an appetite for sharing divinity with others, who serves in the way he does cannot possibly please and hold the patience required for the amount of egos and attitudes that this guy does without going completely mad. He is largely responsible for brining many Hindu Saints to the West including but not limited to Amma, “the hugging saint” who sees hundreds of thousands of people per year. Even though he was traveling abroad, he still had time for me and communicated in a timely manner through his staff.
I shared with him I had just been cracked open and that I had no contracts for his infamous Bhakti Festivals for the 2017 season. It was within the next few weeks following that I would come to learn that not only would we be included in both the May and September festivals, but none one other than Prem Baba himself would be traveling to the United States to facilitate satsang in the very same room that we have been singing his songs for the past 6 years. I was over the moon! I would still get to sit with him but he would be coming to me! LOL, when it all seems as if it i falling apart, more often than not, it is falling into place.
I did get to sit with Prem Baba and actually was gifted a private meeting with him before his final teaching at the festival. Thank you to the loving souls who facilitated this for me. It was literally a dream come true.
More important than anything else was his teaching. Oh the way baba works is incredible! I love that many who do not yet understand the internal methods for liberation have still to look forward to their awakenings. Like tasting a fabulous dessert before it is served to your family knowing it is going to blow everyone away!
He weaved a share that began “God Head” deep and yet held so much joy and playfulness, to not get cracked wide open by the sheer exposure surely suggests of deep, “pain body” or simply exposure to the wrong teacher. But what teacher who is so adept at love could be wrong?
 He spoke primarily of relationship and how the most challenging shift at this time in the true “seekers” evolution is the transition from suffering to joy. Simple? Maybe not so much. It may seem simple to some but the energy that is required to stay present moment to moment can be daunting. Why? Simply because we are programable beings and much of that has been up and to this moment, suffering.
Baba explained of the instrument of gratitude and how if we account for the present moment, that there is nothing but “peace”. Then he gave a simple yet profound tool. “Stop Complaining” he said gently in Portuguese. Then remarked, it is not easy because our default is to suffer.
Just to begin to notice the frequency and programed baseline of complaint that I generate is a profound reflection. It is one slippery slope but one I plan to traverse with great attention and intensity.
Life is great here in the now and I do not want to take that for granted. It can change at a moments notice. I send love and support to those who are working through injuries and the loss of loved ones, depression, hopelessness and just general dissatisfaction. I will the day to come where all of my thoughts are as present and conscious as when I focus to create healing and peace.
We are all just walking one another home and I want to be a great date!
I am so very grateful for this beautiful life and I praise our journey and awakening together as one.
Thank you to everyone who made this year possible and blessings beyond compare to our sacred guardian team!

LSD, SPIRITUALITY, SEX “PODCAST” and “TRANSFORMATION MADE EASY” RETREAT

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I’ve recently been included in a podcast series hosted by a dear friend and longtime fellow traveler Zach Leary.

Zack hosts a show called, “It’s all happening” and its content and guests have been nothing short of highly stimulating.

Some of my favorites included his interview with Andy Summers former guitar legend from “The Police”, Ram Dass, Jack Kornfield, Mark Mothersbaugh, and Daniel Pinchbeck,  just a short list of the shows I’ve thoroughly enjoyed.

Zach has the unwaivering gift of supporting and fertilizing “loving awareness”. He is thoughtful, extremely well read, thought provoking and has evolved from a lineage of great thinkers. Yes without going into it he shares the same last name as that Harvard guy who…

When he reached out to me about being on his show, I was a bit intimidated. I saw no way that I could be added to his great list of interviews and while I teach that “comparison is the poison of diversity”, I put it off for quite some time before reconnecting and being invited back to share.

For the past 6 years I have been immersed deeply in some of the most esoteric teachings known to mankind. I have traveled to South America and received a 100 year old, antique, Shipibo pipe and been accepted into a lineage that is as earth connected and simple as it is aware and in communication with the intelligences of the “inter-dimensional matrices”.

I was concerned I had traveled too “far out” and that I would not be grounded enough to share from an authentic place of service. Bottom line was, I was not yet ready to expose what I had experienced because I had not yet integrated enough to deliver from a well rounded, neutral perspective. Those who know me well will affirm that I am compulsively considerate of others organic processes. It is not my job or right to step on someones belief systems nor is it fair for me to reveal truths that are not yet ready to be received.

I’m proud of this piece of my character and my birthday is coming. I wanted to do something special. I sat in silence and in the stilness a vision of how my diverse group of friends act primarity from either their “left” anylitcal calculating brain or their “right” creative intuitive hemisphere came in very clearly. I felt into the imbalace and sought resolve. So many believe that to do really deep selfwork one must be disiplined and cut off from outside stimulation. Another belief is that the left brain cannot validate practices that are not “scientifically” sound. I was driven to bring the two together.

What if we could create a New Years ritual that combined left brain luxury with right brain spiritual transformation? This would really put the basic New Years Resolution to the test! I connected with another old friend to create a deeply transformational, spiritual retreat that would join the luxury and pampering of a five star resort with the impact that someone might expect to experience after a week with Anthony Robbins.  I am thankful those who may be interested in attending now have an introduction to what we are offering through this podcast interview.

It will be difficult to find the level of transformation and supportive, nurturing experience we are offering for this coming New Years. What many are seeking will occur swiftly and with great ease over one weekend. I know people who invest tens of thousands of dollars in life coaching and mentorship. I have never witnessed more powerful integration and results than when you tap into and are introduced to your own unlimited, renewable energy source.

This is the first interview I have done in 10 years within which I have not been self conscious in the least bit.

Please enjoy my talk with Zach. Time with him definitely reminds one that it is all happening.  We speak about hallucinogens, the inertia of sexual energy and how that translates to group breath experience, the technical mechanics of left brain spirituality and humility. He made me so comfortable, I even almost forgot about the microphones.

For those of you reading from me for the first time, I dare you to find anything more powerful with a similar sized commitment than the work I am offering today.

The days of the teacher, guru, life coach and mentor are fading quickly. You are your own master. Learn to look within, come play with us in September, then take what you have learned home with you and then share it with others.

Love spoken here.

Reclaiming our Mental Focus and Balance

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If it seems like it is over whelming, when the brain is racing and there seems to be an internal battle between the yearning for calm and rest and what feels like an out of control mental gymnastics competition, there is an open opportunity for magic.

Taking a step back, expanding our awareness and looking at the evolution of communication and the way in which we live our lives, there is a path with clear markers that lead straight to why we are where we are.

Before television and radio, options for mental stimulation were of a more paced and balanced nature.

Reading and writing lead the charge keeping the minds work at an organic pace.

Radio and television brought about the jelly brain, leaving no cooperation or partnership for the brain.

Now we could just shut off and have information chosen by a, key word, “programmer” pumped into our experience without any filter.

The brain would lay dormant becoming weak and prone to images and sounds that would create belief systems full of illusion and plant fresh seeds for compulsive consumerism and the degradation of personal self esteem.

While millions watched images of what people “should” look and act like, judgment of the self took on a whole new meaning.

Today we have the information super highway. We click and click and choose and click. images flash before our eyes scrambling the thought process at break neck speed. the average someone spends on a page is barley enough to even begin to know what is being shared.

This constant flow of information is to many, our life blood. it has shaped our world, the way we share, grow and are seen. it also needs to be respected.

Take a couple days every week away from your computer screen.

The new kill your tv is kill your search engine.

So much to reflect on.

So much beauty in this world…

See?

15 Styles of Distorted Thinking

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“Filtering: You take the negative details and magnify them while filtering out all positive aspects of a situation.

Polarized Thinking: Things are black or white, good or bad. You have to be perfect or you’re a failure. There is no middle ground.

Overgeneralization: You come to a general conclusion based on a single incident or piece of evidence. If something bad happens once you expect it to happen over and over again.

Mind Reading: Without their saying so, you know what people are feeling and why they act the way they do. In particular, you are able to divine how people are feeling toward you.

Castastrophizing: You expect disaster. you notice or hear about a problem and start “what if’s”. What if tragedy strikes? What if it happens to you?”

Personalization: Thinking that everything people do or say is some kind of reaction to you. You also compare yourself to others, trying to determine who’s smarter, better looking, etc.

Control Fallacies: If you feel externally controlled, you see yourself as helpless, a victim of fate. The fallacy of internal control has you responsible for the pain and happiness of everyone around you.

Fallacy of Fairness: You feel resentful because you think you know what’s fair but other people won’t agree with you.

Blaming: You hold other people responsible for your pain, or take the other tack and blame yourself for every problem or reversal.

Should: You have a list of ironclad rules about how you and other people should act. People who break the rules anger you and you feel guilty if you violate the rules.

Emotional Reasoning: You believe that what you feel must be true-automatically. If you feel stupid and boring, then you must be stupid and boring.

Fallacy of Change: You expect that other people will change to suit you if you just pressure or cajole them enough. You need to change people because your hope for happiness seem to depend entirely on them.

Global Labeling: You generalize one or two qualities into a negative global judgment.

Being Right: You are continually on trial to prove that your opinions and actions are correct. Being wrong is unthinkable and you will go to any length to demonstrate your rightness.

Heaven’s Reward Fallacy: You expect all your sacrifice and self-denial to pay off, as if there were someone keeping score. You feel better when the reward doesn’t come.”

-John M. Grohol, Psy.D.

Gratitude for this work!